Ila slowly closed the door to the safe house apartment and slumped to the hallway floor. She thought, "How? Why does this kind of thing keep happening to me?" Her stomach bubbled, and suddenly, she threw up all over herself. She could not move. It was as if she were having a mini-nervous breakdown. The hallway went black, and for a moment, she had no idea where she was.
Ila is a beautiful, intelligent African American woman working with the FBI. She has been strong and brave her entire life, working hard to earn a place in a career field mostly run by men. Her love life, however, is in shambles. No matter what she does, she can't seem to get it right, going up against cheaters, liars, and jerks. She seeks fulfillment in more than her career; she wants a fulfilling romance, as well.
Ila also enjoys sex-which is what has gotten her into trouble in the past. Once she finally meets the perfect man, they get engaged, but he is hiding a big secret that borders on betrayal. What happens when sexual gratification becomes more important than love? Ila is about to find out through emotional exploitation and heartbreak while still seeking the real thing.